I’ve been tossing around the idea of blogging about our journey for awhile now. Somehow, putting it down in words would make it real, and that was scary. But I’ve decided that I need a place to express the craziness that goes on in my head. So this blog is for me. It’s for me to share what I’m thinking and feeling. But it’s also for others. Through this journey I’ve learned that people don’t get it – even the people closest to you. Unless they’ve been on this roller coaster, they have no idea what the ride is like. So maybe someone will read this and get A Glimpse Inside one person’s experience. It’s also for the countless souls out there facing the same battle. There’s comfort to be found in “googling” something and finding that, despite the way it feels, you are not alone.
I intend to tell it like it is. Because that’s who I am. So this blog will not be for the weak of heart. I intend to show some pretty raw emotions and I’ll warn you, it’s not pretty. I’m not looking for anyone’s shallow comments and hollow words of encouragement — that’s not my purpose. So if you think you can handle it, welcome to my journey. And if you can’t bear to hear the honesty, the raw emotion, I understand… I know how hard it is to feel these feelings, I can appreciate how difficult it is to read about them.
A note for those who know me, I have decided to keep my identity anonymous. Not out of shame or embarassment, but because I’ve learned that the world is small. I want this blog to be public so that when a stranger is searching, they will find my words and hopefully find comfort. But given my line of work, I’m not comfortable with this kind of public vulnerability should it fall into the wrong hands. So, comments will all be moderated and if you use my name, your comment will remain for my eyes only.
Thanks for stopping by. Hope to see you again real soon.