What better way to start the new year then spending it in emerg? I woke up this morning feeling great. Took my obligatory morning pee and gushed out a bunch of bright red blood. Oh.. this might get gross… reader discretion is advised.
For the next 5 hours I waited and bled and cried. Because what else could I do? I prayed. Me.. the agnostic.. prayed. Begged whoever is in charge to please help me.
The good news is, the baby seems to be okay for right now. Strong heartbeat and doing somersaults, according to the doctor. But no one could really tell me what was wrong. Don’t get sick on a holiday…. the ER is FULL of people and the real ultrasound people are away. So I’ll be paying a visit to my fertility clinic first thing Tuesday morning (they were closed for two weeks of Christmas holiday too) and hoping they can give me more answers.
It looks like it could be a subchorionic hematoma but they couldn’t be sure with the limited equipment they had today. The bleeding has slowed down so I’m hoping that’s a good sign… but it’s going to be a long wait until Tuesday.
I can’t tell you how hard I cried when they were able to see baby and it’s strong heartbeat. I made them show me and my husband in case we never got to see it again. How is it possible to love something so much? Someone I’ve never met?
Anyways, I would appreciate it if you kept me and baby in your thoughts and prayers.